I don't care if this doesn't make sense.
I just hope that maybe you're reading this.
Stop making things harder
Stop being so nice to me
Stop blaming yourself
Stop thinking that I'm the only thing that can make you happy. As much as I want to believe that
There is something out there waiting to make you more happy than I ever could Go Find It
Just let me go.
Just be mad
Just cry
Just please don't think that I did it because I was done with you.
Im too tired to hold on. But i'm too in love to let go.
"It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does".
Please be my best friend still.
Something good is going to come from this.
All of my strength is going to trusting my Savior.
I know he can make things right for you,
Make you happy, happier than any person can.
Find some thing good for you and hold on to it.
sometimes it has to break completely in order to heal all the way.
“Wanting him is hard to forget, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I’ve felt, letting go is the most painful yet.”
It's not easy for me either. I wish it could have been the other way around.
Please stay safe. Don't hurt yourself because of me. Please. Do everything for yourself.
Go on a mission and tell people anything you know about the gospel.IF you want to.. Stay in school. If you feel like it. Get married..Wherever you feel is right for you. But please just do one thing for me? Don't hurt yourself.
I couldn't stand to see you more hurt than I already have.
"It's going to be hard talking to you. it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more ."
This will help, if you let it.
Hold your scriptures. Look at the cover. Sleep with them. Open them up. Look at a word. Read a verse. Just holding them gives you power. Think about Heavenly Father and his plan for you. Think about praying. Get down on your knees for a few seconds. Maybe close your eyes. Ask if any one is there. Then just Listen. You don't have to open up your scriptures and start reading 5 chapters a night. You don't have to pray a certain amount of times a day. Start small. I can't help you any more. But he can. He will show you his son who is feeling the same stabbing feeling that you are. And then if you just ask him, he will take that heavy, stinging, painful, achy, exhaustion away from you. I know this will happen. Because it just happened to me.
I've never really shared my testimony with you. So here is a portion of it...
I know my Heavenly Father and my big brother Jesus Christ are waiting to take this weight off of my shoulders. I know the peace that comes from saying words as simple as "I can't do this any more. Please carry my pain for a little while so I can get through this." The peace will come. I know it will. Please just try this. Then it is our responsibility to tell any one that this is possible.
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